Becoming Full-Time: Growing Through Hard Things
I sat on my couch earlier today and thanked God for what He was building in me as a leader and a business owner. I really don’t know that I was “prepared” to perform at the highest level in all the roles within my business. I’ve always been the content creator, social media manager, marketing/advertising team, decision maker…all the things.
That’s still the case now and it’s times ten and I have to admit, I’ve found myself working away from being overstimulated. January 2nd, 2025 was my final day being a full time employee for someone else’s multimillion dollar company and I’m going to be bold enough to say it was also my first day working for my own multimillion dollar business. All the elements are there: value, dedication, belief, commitment, offers. The amount of time I’m spending in the business is present - the piece that still falling into place? The income. The cash money, coins, pesos, dollars, bread, yen, cheddar, paper, cheese, euros haha you get my drift.
I’ve experienced one thousand emotions this week alone - fear, hope, encouragement, worry, excitement, anxiety. You name it, I more than likely felt it and that made for a hard couple of days. Not because of the work but because I wasn’t seeing the results I wanted to see. Email after email, DMs to folks, reminders and all - nothing. No one was automatically in or planning to attend the events. That could all change tomorrow, next week or three months from now but it will change.
That’s when my brain offered - “maybe you need to think of a different plan.” “This might not work afterall” “What are you even doing?”
Since I know the power of my thoughts and I for sure know how the enemy tries to get me caught up, I came to myself. Because my thoughts weren’t true and my feelings have never been facts. The real truth is that being an entrepreneur does not promise or guarantee immediate results or validation through folks investing. Huunnii, it promises growth, stretching, more time with God, and inviting in a different level of faith. Literally…the definition of faith that Hebrews 11:1 talks about - I don’t see a THING, you hear me?! LOL! But I believe. I know God is allowing me to believe differently. He’s letting me trust Him. He’s giving me bits of encouragement along the way and my heart (and mind) are both extremely grateful.
A couple of rough days don’t make for a bad week.
One of my best friends popped in to deliver soft pink tulips based on something I mentioned last week. Of course I cried.
My huunnii randomly sent me $100. “just for being you”.
I laughed at shows. Continued to create and think through marketing, reached out to total strangers with the hope of a “yes”, and then decided to create this blog. I’m taking you all on my journey of rebranding myself through my business and my identity in Christ. It will get uncomfortable, weird, encouraging and I’m sure relatable for some of you. All while being fulfilling, exciting and giving me more opportunities to be in awe of God working through me and in my life. Welcome to my journey of being a full time entrepreneur. I’m letting myself explore hobbies, decorate my new home and so much more and I’m glad you’re here for the adventure.
Life Lately as a Full-Time Entrepreneur:
I didn’t convert the way I hoped—and had to remember I’m not just building for now.
I questioned whether I’m “doing enough”—even though I know that overworking isn’t sustainable.
I gave myself permission to rest. Not quit. Just rest.
3 Prompts for the Full-Time You (or the You Who’s On Her Way):
If you're building something from scratch or wrestling with the in-between, these might help:
“What would it feel like to give myself more grace this week?”
“I know I can do this because…”
“If I could talk to the version of me who started this journey, what would I say?”
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